Well, I made it to that point where I'm officially sick of myself again which is actually a pretty good thing. Re-started Piyo at 5:30 this morning. Tracking water, food and portions for now to bring awareness. It's a bit of relief to know that I can have abs again in a month if I'm diligent, but ridiculously frustrating that I just don't stick with it in the first place.
I just re-read that. Don't I sound like a total whiny ass bitch? Oh, that six pack? Meh, no big deal. Give me like two days and it'll be eight, or ten. My abs have abs. I can crack walnuts with my ass cheeks, too.
NOT.
I've been at war with my body since I was five. About two years ago I finally accepted more realistic expectations of myself, aiming for health and vitality, and not some photoshopped magazine fantasy. Just need to figure out these cycles of funks and what they're about so I can be more consistent. I'm hoping that healing my adrenals and balancing my hormones will do the trick. It's quite aggravating to think of where I'd be right now if my efforts were compounded instead of starting over every time.
Ugh.
I just re-read that. Don't I sound like a total whiny ass bitch? Oh, that six pack? Meh, no big deal. Give me like two days and it'll be eight, or ten. My abs have abs. I can crack walnuts with my ass cheeks, too.
NOT.
I've been at war with my body since I was five. About two years ago I finally accepted more realistic expectations of myself, aiming for health and vitality, and not some photoshopped magazine fantasy. Just need to figure out these cycles of funks and what they're about so I can be more consistent. I'm hoping that healing my adrenals and balancing my hormones will do the trick. It's quite aggravating to think of where I'd be right now if my efforts were compounded instead of starting over every time.
Ugh.
Anyway, I'll be using these Burner Girls as my motivation to keep going every day. I want to be my best possible self when I go to this festival and that includes rocking these amazing (-ly tiny) outfits or none at all! Eek!
BTW - I'm slightly crushing on the first one at the moment. Mainly because, if I could let everything go and just BE, she's a pretty good example of what you'd get. Except she's a bit hotter ;)
BTW - I'm slightly crushing on the first one at the moment. Mainly because, if I could let everything go and just BE, she's a pretty good example of what you'd get. Except she's a bit hotter ;)
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